SHORT ANSWER -
I’m having a fucking holiday.
LONG ANSWER -
I am hitting a 3-week “reset” button between my London life and my next abode… Eastbourne!
I’d been living in London for 6 years and (oh hey online vulnerability) the last 6-8 weeks of being in London were a challenge, to say the least.
I had a sneaky return of suicidal thoughts on a daily basis. I was crying most days. I was experiencing high levels of anxiety. Being physically ill for 2 weeks (UTI followed by a week-long sickness bug followed by another UTI) probably didn’t help my mental state either to be honest.
I did have an ALMIGHTY trip to the States booked that would’ve taken me around 3 months to travel through. I even wrote a blog these plans. Sigh. The simple truth is that a suicidal Jess probably shouldn’t be traveling alone for 3 months. This gal needs familiarity. So I shortened that trip to 3 weeks and it has turned into more of a “short exploratory holiday” than your typical “traveling”.
I feel 100% content that this was the right decision, for me, at this time.
The last 10 days in San Francisco have seen me running with Run Talk Run North Cal, training every day, helping to host a mental health networking retreat, laughing a TONNE with Run Talk Runner and close pal Emma, visiting the Twin Peaks and Alcatraz and Castro and China Town and Parkrun and Golden Gate Bridge, eating a fucking load of burgers and generally living my “best Jess life”.
The week that is to come, in LA (once I’ve got myself through this 8 hour coach journey, will hopefully be filled with more Run Talk Run related activities (meeting MyCrew tomorrow- download it now to join a RTR if you haven’t already), and relaxing on sunny beaches and running and lifting and working on this fucking gorgeous community that we call Run Talk Run.
Sooooo, my loves, that is what I am doing in America. I am loving it.
